2021 was rude to me, y'all, and I'm not even joking.
You know that expression talking about the harshness of reality? Yeah.
It was like someone took me out of a very comfortable box, and tossed me in front of a firing squad. Only, in this case, the bullets were unfamiliar jobs, exaaammms, saving and spending my own money (may not sound like it, but a VERY big deal for me.), building new relationships (Yes, Julz, not romantic relationships. Leave me alone! 😭) and having the cajones to walk away from mentally tasking situations and people.
So... Yes, my box may have been the best box there ever was; water resistant, furnished with the latest technical appliances and, might I add, an in built ice cream station, but, at the end of the day, it remained just that... A box.
If you know me, you know I'm iffy about any kind of change. It takes a considerable amount of time for me to get used to, not new things, but the idea that what I was used to is no longer possible.
Same thing? Sue me.
That's why these "new year, new me" declarations make me laugh. Cannot be me, Victoria Chisom StellaMaris. I'm the same person I always was, with major room for improvement, upon which, I still won't be new but merely an updated version of myself. Kinda like an IOS installment.
Don't believe me? Tell that to the Italian cuss words i learnt in SS2.
While speaking to a friend, yesterday, I happened to ask what his new year resolutions were and he said, "To be more intentional with life." Basically, bringing a commitment, focus, and attention to everything he does in life.
That answer, to me, was perfect because while I cannot be "new", in every sense of the word, I can choose to be intentional about everything... My writing, my job, my friends, new restaurants e.t.c Basically, things I have always done and things I've never tried before.
So, friends, here's to a new year- 🍸
Here's to the same me-🍷
Here's to new Intentions-🍷🍷
And, finally; Here's to hoping that our screw ups, inevitable as they may be, do not outweigh our fix ups. 🍾🍾🍾
HAPPY NEW YEAR.
With love,
- Vicki ❤.
